When Others' Happy Make You Feel Miserable

Browsing through facebook and friendster have not been a great experience lately. Photos of others' graduation. My classmates, my cousins, my friends... They have all earned the right to attend the convocation as a graduate. And I have nothing but a sincere congratulations to all those who have made it.

As for me, and a few others who suffered the same fate as me, I can only say Keep Trying ! Finish what you started and don't ever quit.

I don't blame any body but myself for this. And they did nothing wrong by sharing photos of their sweet success moments online.

I felt bad because I tried but not hard and smart enough. I wanted to graduate. I want it bad.
I wanted to be among my M26 classmates in this photos.

I thought I could share that moment with my friends.


I wished I can stand in this photo with my cousins. What a family reunion that would have been ! My granny would have been so proud.
The experience of going through such a hard time have thought me one thing. My previous method and the amount of work I put in for exam,is not good enough.

Now that is it decided that I either graduate by September,go to UTAR in Janaury OR settle with a diploma. Any more delays in studies is unacceptable.

In other words, I do well this well, I continue and if I don't, that's it. The fun ends.

With that in mind I'll have to do everything I can to make sure I do well. I might quit my job,study until I drop,cheat in exam,beg for help, any thing to get this right.

I have 7 weeks left now to tackle my worst subjects in college. I hope I'm up for this. To those in similar situation as me, start early,study smart,do your best! And you shall have no regrets at the end of day.

Good Luck