What To Do ???

• I'm so disturbed by these thoughts. Every time it goes through my mind I'll end up having sleepless nights.
  
  
• I have probably seen a little too much of the dark side and I have lost the believe that such a thing or person still exist. Maybe it does, but certainly rare in the real world.
  
  
• If I'm in the opposite position I would have acted in the same manner as well. But I am where I am.
  
  
• I don't want to blame the whole world for this because it is just not right. But what could I do to make a significant difference? Is there any thing I could have done in the past to change the present? How can I change myself to make a difference?
  
  
• Life has been arranged in such a way and it will remain like this for the next few years at least. They say you have to appreciate what you have in order to be happy but how can I be happy when I'm now powerless to change the way things are?
  
  
• The situation is not getting any better at all. There will be no miracles and I need time to solve this problem. By the time its over, what's gone is gone.
  
  
• I don't want pay the price for somebody else's mistake. Why should I be punished for another person's sin? But guess what, I might just have to swallow that bitter pill and accept it.
  
  
• I have always believed if I really wanted something realistically possible, I will get it sooner or later. But to get everything the way I want it is a major doubt.
  
  

Feeling quite depressed. I hope I'm wrong about this. Hopefully things aren't as bad as they seem.

HOPEFULLY...