Last Words

Its been difficult to move on...
Knowing you since secondary school until now. The times we spent together as friends makes it impossible for me to ignore your presence.

Accepting the fact that I lost a close friend is hard but then you were more than just a friend.

Understanding my own feelings is something I've always very slow at. Something happened inside me. I only knew about this when I started to feel the jealousy after your overseas trip.

Thought about it long and hard, I finally decided to take the risk and tell you the truth. Even after you told me your plans to go to a foreign land, I still wanted to let you know. I had to.
Then came the days where you can only be seen in a virtual world called 'internet'. I tried finding you, I swear I did but all I got from you in the end was 'BUSY'.

After that I was accused of committing a "crime" which the accusers is as "guilty" as me. GONE ! The friendship, the plan on my confession, everything we had became nothing but a part of history that cannot be repeated. LOST !
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Now that things have turned out this way there isn't much I can do. Tried talking you to but you wouldn't answer me. Its okay because there isn't much left to say.
I'm glad I had a friend like you in my life. I'm happy that I had that 'somebody' I wish to be with when I'm alone.I apologize for all my wrong doings. For all the wrong things I did, all the wrong words I said that might have caused you distress.

You are leaving soon. I just want to sincerely wish you a life filled with happiness and joy as you discover your new life in the foreign land.

I don't know what else I can say... Good Bye.