One Of The Worst Period Of My Life?

If I were to fail again in exam, I will seriously consider leaving UTAR.

Being the future sole bread winner I needed to graduate from university a.s.a.p. and start working to support my family. That is what I intend to do and what I really want to do but there is one big problem.

I'm struggling to achieve the minimum grades to secure the loan to finance my studies. I don't have the passion for what I'm studying, I don't like the place where I live, and I cannot do what I dream of doing in university due to my knee injury. UTARians know best about how much tougher things are compared to other uni in Malaysia and despite all the extra effort I have to put in, and all the trouble I have to go through, I don't think it will matter in the end.

What makes a UTAR Bachelor of Marketing cert better than others ? does your lower grade prove you that you gone through tougher exams?

If my struggles with studies is bad, the life I have there makes it worse. I mean, I don't like that place. I just don't belong there, I love where hometown too much. The university life there is just too dry. The nearest place to find a cinema is almost an hour away. Plus, my dream of representing the uni team is gone when I ruptured my ACL. And to make it worse, the thing that is preventing me from having my knee repaired is having to live in a place I don't like, to do the thing I don't love for reasons I don't know. WHAT THE HELL?

Why on earth am I even in UTAR,Kampar? I wanted to quit about a year ago and maybe I should have left.