Standard Charted KL Marathon 2012

I've put in my best possible effort on that day but the result was disappointing. My time was way off my targeted time due to several reasons. The terrain was tougher than I expected and the slopes were much more steep than my training places. Lack of sleep, over trained in the final few days and above all, my extra body weight due to all the fat I'm carrying ruined the time.

It was the toughest 10km I've ever done but that its over and I've done reviewing it, its time to turn my focus to UTAR run 2012. Wish me luck~!

My Direction Is Clear

After discussions with family and friends I have decided to continue what I've started in UTAR and finish it. Now that my direction is clear hopefully I can improve my academic performances from now on. For once at least my direction is clear for the next one year or so.

One Of The Worst Period Of My Life?

If I were to fail again in exam, I will seriously consider leaving UTAR.

Being the future sole bread winner I needed to graduate from university a.s.a.p. and start working to support my family. That is what I intend to do and what I really want to do but there is one big problem.

I'm struggling to achieve the minimum grades to secure the loan to finance my studies. I don't have the passion for what I'm studying, I don't like the place where I live, and I cannot do what I dream of doing in university due to my knee injury. UTARians know best about how much tougher things are compared to other uni in Malaysia and despite all the extra effort I have to put in, and all the trouble I have to go through, I don't think it will matter in the end.

What makes a UTAR Bachelor of Marketing cert better than others ? does your lower grade prove you that you gone through tougher exams?

If my struggles with studies is bad, the life I have there makes it worse. I mean, I don't like that place. I just don't belong there, I love where hometown too much. The university life there is just too dry. The nearest place to find a cinema is almost an hour away. Plus, my dream of representing the uni team is gone when I ruptured my ACL. And to make it worse, the thing that is preventing me from having my knee repaired is having to live in a place I don't like, to do the thing I don't love for reasons I don't know. WHAT THE HELL?

Why on earth am I even in UTAR,Kampar? I wanted to quit about a year ago and maybe I should have left.

The Irreplaceables.

It is when you are in trouble that you find out who are the people who really care for you. Many people will come to you when you have something to give but few will stay after you have nothing left to offer.

No one has ever cared for me more than my parents. Despite failing to live up to their expectations they have always been there for me when times are bad. When I suffered a torn ligament recently my parents came all the way to Kampar and fetched me back home and then back here again for my MUET. This is just one of the endless list of things that they have done for me and still continue to do for me without asking any thing back.

No one has ever done such thing for me before and I doubt there will ever be one. I'm indebted to them in such a way that I can never pay them back.

They are not perfect. They don't always find the right words or methods to solve a problem. But their intention is never in doubt and every time I think about this it makes me feel sad.

Because I have been rude to them in the past, I have done so little to make them proud, I was too selfish to only look after my own interest and not theirs. I have not been a good son to them.

I can never give them back what they have given me. But now I am determined to make up for it as much as I can. I want them to know that the sacrifices they made for me have been worth it.

Life Scripts

A movie script tells the actors what to do in the movie.

What I mean by a life script is how you live your life. What sort of image you want to create? What kind of life do you want to live? How you define 'enjoy life'? The adrenaline rush or the peace? Things like these.
Nothing is certain in life.Except death.

I'm glad to say I've learned how to write my own history rather than to live by others. I'm glad I can decide how I live my life and not how people tell me to. The best part is I'm learning to choose how I feel and react to things. Oh yeah ! Its great when you can do that. No more need for quick-fixes

Scripts written by others are all nothing but rubbish. Things like 'Real Men smokes','do stupid things when you're emo', 'guys MUST have a girl friend' ,'all men are flirts, one will never be enough', or even 'boys like girls,girls like boys'.

I'm sure you are getting all ready to argue thinking that those are very much a part of life. But if you ask Sir Elton John about the last one, and he'll beg to differ. But any way, my point is....

I'm old enough to choose how to live my life. While some concerned parties(which I appreciate,) are suggesting that I'm missing out certain things in life.But I've decided how to live my life. The only undecided is the date of my death.
You may give me suggestions and put it in a nice way, but I don't like it when people argue about what I want in life or how I should live. I'm happy when I get things done properly. I'll go on a holiday only if I think I deserve it.
I've had my down point of my life about half a year ago. And now I'm determined pick myself up and to take advantage of my young age to do what I can for the future.

That's Donovan Tan/Aikbu/Yiwu/Zidane/...